"When we meet, I listen to your heartbeat - I can hear the rhythm and the tone... Your heartbeat song, it's good but it's not the one, we're singing out of tune, but I still want to sing with youuuuuuu"
For some reason this morning, this lyric struck a cord with me. I didn't know why at first, but after I'd listened to the song afew times it clicked,
We all have them. People we were with, even though we know we weren't suited. We were out of sync. Or, as the song says, out of tune with each other.
I know I do:
Ones that didn't even know I existed.
But is the past a foreign country? A country we can revist, and rewrite?
I was a different person when these were in my life. I was young, headstrong, immature even.
Being 10 years older, the arrogance of youth has turned into the confidence that I know who I am. I know what I strive for in a romantic partner. And I'm looking forward to the pitfalls of finding them. The rollercoaster of dating. The will-they-text. The 'spark'.
Some of the daliances above had the spark in droves, but it wasn't the right time for us. Or they ticked all my boxes, but there was no spark.
So, I'm going to keep listening, to see if our heatbeat song matches...