Well, a week of roller coaster proportions!
After a positive start with my Pain Management Programme Annual Review / Conference (which I 'live tweeted' under the #pmp), leaving the day invigorated and positive, I then suffered a set back yesterday, where my confidence was knocked, and my joie de vivre seemed to have all but completely disappeared. Today is another day, and I learnt my lesson from yesterday, and I've planned my time, and activities to stretch throughout the day, so hopefully things will start looking up for me.
Monday was an odd day, where plans were haphazard, and my mindtank was slipping into a dark place. This was clear in a twitter interaction, and I would like to apologise for that.
Tuesday though, was brighter, as things were planned, and I had a purpose - to look back over my year, see it in perspective, that this blip was just that, a blip, and over all, I have achieved much throughout this past year.
I had even planned my outfit for the conference, opting for power dressing and colour to optimise my positivity:
I had taken more photos that morning, but it seems it was rather dark in my bathroom, so these are the best ones!
This dress was ordered from SimplyBe, as part of my retail therapy the week before, and it does come with a belt, just not this one:
Now I think the thinner belt looks okay, but it does make the dress appear more of an empire line / smock type dress on me, but I think that is more to do with the size of my chest taking up more fabric than this 20 dress is designed to, and my height, meaning that my waist is lower than this dress is meant for.
However, I do love it, and on this occasion I wore it with my black skinny jeans as it was cold and forecast for rain.
My outlook for the rest of this week is looking up, mainly because I have little activities planned for each day, allowing me something to aim for, something to plan around, and most of all, a reason to get out of bed and get dressed in a morning!
I can't stress the effect chronic pain has your mental health. It is debilitating, it is tiring, and most of all, it is something you need to come to terms with and accept. I have accepted I will live with this for the rest of my life, but sometimes, it does get too much, and this week I think was one of those weeks.
Much love my lovelies,